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Wednesday, August 13, 2008 @ 10:17 PM
super worry and don noe wat to do now.....
haiz....how come things will become like that???
why do have this weird kind of mum???....
realli hope that things will become better.....
i suddenly become veri veri scared...seriously scared.....
not because of anything.....
but because i scared i will further hurt/frightened her......
seriously lahx...if not because of that i have already done it.....
feel like screaming............AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
feel like clearing up all the "misunderstandings" once for all...
feel like scolding her in her face so that she will noe wat is her problem (but i doubt this will work)...
feel like acting blur or dumb or cruel for not caring and concern......
feel like going back in time to "undo" my actions....
feel like helping her to voice out (but it may make it more worse)...
feel like giving her all the power so that she wont fear....
damn it lahx....confused and all....
why why why???????????????????????????????
i jus have to take up that role.....
if i don do it.....................no one will.....
jus coz i am *** ******.....
haiz....care and concern shows...i realli cared and concern for her....
but wat can i do...i can realli do much??....
important is she herself bahx....
some things cant be helped.......only she herself....
OH MY GOD!!!!.....I AM SERIOUSLY VERI VERI WORRIED NOW.....
i don noe how is she going to face her orals tml.....
she said she prepared....but den till jus now she still cant lehx....
seeing her yawn and yawn when i am saying...
it makes me feels angry but cant...
caught in the middle of emotions............
angry but cant....
scold but cant....
give the sad face but try not to...
argh....all i noe because if i do that it will jus make things more worse....
have to put a smile face and say "come on u can do it"....
i am seriously tired....
i don noe wat to do with her......haiz....
will encouragement helps???
or scolding will help???
encouragement......i don even noe if she is realli doing anot....
she don ask....
scolding.....will only make her feel worse....or maybe frighten her more......
how can i keep telling her to do and do....
i wondered how much persistent she(another person) has for her.....
i don noe how long i can take it man.......
i don noe whether i have that much persistent....
all the persistent she has i tink it is because of her love for her....
but den i aso loved her....
but i jus feel tired....realli tired.....
haiz....realli hope she can buck up man.....
i will do as much as i can bahx....
i don tink i will wan find job le.....
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argh.....
how can this idiot thing be solved???.....
seriously solved and once for all....
realli sick and tired of it man......
it has been so long le....cant u jus forget it all.....
i seriously don noe wat u are tinking and angry of.......
haiz....coz of u i become seriously afraid....
i don noe this kind of ending......
I DON WAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat can i do????......
i jus have to keep tis to myself....
i tink the only way to solve it is..........
see for urself.....
realli see how a person she is....she is not the kind of person u tink......
or have a great fight with me.....
till i say the words so serious that u cant take it but den u finally understand......
but den i don wan the second way to happen......
i feel like toking to someone....
but den i don tink they will understand....
and i have alot to say man.....
i don tink i can say finished.....
i tink this is good enough to help me relieve it.....
kinda feel better after this post....
i tink i will jus have to take things easy and see how things goes....
but den hope things will eventually turn out to be fine and nice.....
but den no matter wat....i tink i will have my stand.....
(but i don tink i can hold my stand long)...................=[
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