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A bond that could never be broken
Monday, April 26, 2010 @ 9:42 PM
when quality time is spent together,
the bond is there
be it 2 weeks or 2 years or 12 years,
to part from each other is hard,
is jus because of the common memories we had gone through together.
2 weeks - laos trip
it is just shortly two weeks that we stayed there.
the times we spent with the children is just probably only 1/3 of the trip
because the rest of the time we will be working
we played together despite the communications barrier
we learnt from each other
getting high for no so whatever reason even if we cant communicate well
and when we are leaving, it sets in some sadness within our hearts.
perhaps some may cry (people deemed it as too emotional),
but in everyone of our hearts, it will just trigger a tinge of sadness
not enough for us to cry out our hearts, because it is jus two weeks
and we faced the reality that we wont be there forever.
2 years - playing with cute little him
time flys,
over the two years, perhaps, i can say i see him grow.
i played with him with the use of facial expression when he can only lie there and look at us
i loved playing with his cute little hands then
i smiled so happily when i can see him turned over.
i held him up so that he can sit up when his back is still weak
i carried him for the first time when he is jus as chubby and small.
i see him sitting in his roller, learning to walk.
i remembered his cute facial expression when he first ate an apple.
i tickled him and chased him all around when he is walking
i tried to understand what he wanted when he goes "eee..uuh...heehhh"
i realli loved the way he called "jie jie"
the cute little actions and things he did realli made my day.
frankly speaking, the times i spent with him is perhaps less a year throughout this 2 years.
but when i heard he is going back home (his real home),
my heart kinda sank.
don't know why but i just kinda feel sad.
he is totally not related to me or what so ever.
perhaps i am looking forward to more cute stuff that he will do
i am treating him like my little bro already...haha...i everytime go find him i would buy sweets for him..
but reality it is as it is.....
12 year - a bond that will never end
a blink of the eye, 12 years just went pass without a sign
the growing years of mine
lead through by this "foster" mother
who brought me lots of unforgettable memories and experiences
who has literally changed a shy, quiet introvert girl to become one who now knows how to speak up (learning still though)
who teaches me alot of values and mindset that sets deeply in me
who worries for the safety of me
whom gone through alot of first times with me (which also scares her though)
who makes good food for me to eat!! hehe (till now i still misses her food =X)
whose food make me learnt to love drinking soup and eating vegetables
who taught me alot of small little things in life that i didnt knew
who brought joy to my life and teaching me not to be so "cold" and to be high abit.
12 years can be considered long,
the bond perhaps had already rooted into the depth of our hearts
leaving from the place made me cried several times until i cant rmb...
but that's the fact
a cruel yet true fact that i have to force myself to accept
because by accepting life will be better
i doubt this bond can be broken so easily
but easily there is a super thick barrier between us, that cannot be stepped over easily
we will go on our separate paths, but the bond wont break
It's harder to recover from the separation with you than a break-up.
Till now i have yet to recover from it.
This is ME