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Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @ 12:39 PM
have you experience before having a person in your life that you respect so much?
and because of this person, you become a totally different person? (as in character)...
yes, i have this person in life...
i respect her for giving me so much, that totally changed my perspective of life and character.
but because of some reason, there just a barrier between me and her.
this barrier has just make me so emo previously...
i thought, the barrier is over and cleared.
but after some years, the barrier is still here.
there are just some things i don't want to confide into her, causing her to be stirred into some shit trouble.
but she just too understand me and keep covering her concern over me....
and somehow, i would just "fall into her trap"...
i am scared...i want to prevent her from getting into trouble, yet her concern is just deeply affected me.
let just say we wont noe wat will happen in the future,
i realli realli hope, she wont get into this stupid trouble again and again....
she has just affected me too deeply, and i respect her much much more than anyone else (even my mother).
caught in a dilemma.
dont want to get too close, yet don wan to get too far.
can i just strike the balance? and keep the relation as good as now.
if ever there is a trouble stirred up again, causing her to get into some shit for no reason,
i am scared i will get too far from her to prevent her getting hurt/angry again.
by then, i will be sad that i have to get too far from her.
and because of this person, you become a totally different person? (as in character)...
yes, i have this person in life...
i respect her for giving me so much, that totally changed my perspective of life and character.
but because of some reason, there just a barrier between me and her.
this barrier has just make me so emo previously...
i thought, the barrier is over and cleared.
but after some years, the barrier is still here.
there are just some things i don't want to confide into her, causing her to be stirred into some shit trouble.
but she just too understand me and keep covering her concern over me....
and somehow, i would just "fall into her trap"...
i am scared...i want to prevent her from getting into trouble, yet her concern is just deeply affected me.
let just say we wont noe wat will happen in the future,
i realli realli hope, she wont get into this stupid trouble again and again....
she has just affected me too deeply, and i respect her much much more than anyone else (even my mother).
caught in a dilemma.
dont want to get too close, yet don wan to get too far.
can i just strike the balance? and keep the relation as good as now.
if ever there is a trouble stirred up again, causing her to get into some shit for no reason,
i am scared i will get too far from her to prevent her getting hurt/angry again.
by then, i will be sad that i have to get too far from her.
but anyway, be thankful i have this person that seems to be always be there for me.
This is ME